Thursday, June 20, 2013

Adventures. They take you by surprise. The spontaneous and exhilarating feeling you get, makes your adrenaline rush, are the best times in your life.

No matter what you are doing, if it seems adventurous to you, then you are living. Isn't that what we are suppose to be doing while we are here on earth for this short while? Living our lives to the fullest? Taking chances? Or risk? I'm not talking breaking the law, I mean seeing the world, sky diving, driving a race car, attending concerts, fall in and out of love, failing at something, but trying to accomplish it again and again. Life is full of stressful things, and it's hard, and it is over bearing at times, but the fact that you are here on earth, alive,  take a moment and be spontaneous!!

I want everyone to cherish the good things that they have in their lives. Take the positive things that you have encountered, and use that to hold on to your hope, and the negative that is happening in your life, use it as motivation. Motivation to succeed and to prove everyone wrong. Then show the world your spontaneous adventures, with your head held high, and a beautiful, radiant smile. You are worth ALL the spontaneous in the world!

It's summer, so enjoy your vacation with spontaneous adventures, and with your friends and family.

Until next time,

Love always,
TaylerMarie <3

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Monday, June 10, 2013

Sun burn/Tan (;

Nothing ever ceases to amaze me!
I am constantly seeing change in this world. Where there is negativity, there is always the positive outcome taken from the situation.
Take a sunburn for example. Your skin is burnt, and it hurts, but in the end you get a beautiful, and natural tan as your outcome, and you look glowing!

I take my experience, and treat it like a sun burn. It hurt, and it blistered a little, but with a little care, I am receiving a wonderful glowing tan. They never tell you that after that horrible sun burn, and you get that wonderful glow, that you gain confidence, and assurance that life will go on, and you will prosper and gain so much! I know I am learning more and more everyday.

I learned, that when you have a negative aspect on life, when you are trying to deal with life, and your home situation, life is hard, and you have no confidence, no glow. You don't want that. You don't deserve that. You deserve all the glow in the world. But trust me when I say the sunburn only last for a little while.

In your eyes, in your own perception of the situation, your thoughts are only negative. How can I move on from this? How can I change for the better, when I have nothing left to gain? When I feel nothing? When I have no hope left?

Listen to me, you have EVERYTHING to gain! Everything. You have your whole life. You go to college, meet new people, change your whole world because you're finally on your own! You get to have fun, and fall in and out of love. Be crazy, wild, outgoing, loving, trusting, all the things you didn't think you could be before.

You have everything gain. You can graduate, get a wonderful job, and a new home, and husband, start a family, and learn to feel all those wonderful feelings, the glowing tan, that's right beneath you. All of this should give you hope. Hope that you can make it out of this negative situation, and you can become something so wonderful in life. That you can make the best of your sun burn, and gain your glowing tan. Because you know what? You deserve it! That tan will suit you, and you will learn to have the confidence, and assurance I know you have buried deep with in your body, mind, and soul. You will be everything you set your mind too.

So just breath, and know everything will be okay!

Love always,

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Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Finding me....

I am thinking a lot tonight.

But when am I not thinking a lot?

I am trying to see things, that cannot yet be seen. It's a difficult vision,  because it's blurry, and unclear. I wish I could see what is in store for me. What am I suppose to do in this world? What should I major in? Where should I move? Who should I trust? Will I graduate college? Will I ever get married, or fall in love? Will there ever be clear days where I don't over think my life, and the struggles I am facing?

I have always had the tenacity to move forward no matter what. I just wish sometimes, things would be more clear. But I don't get that. I get a mind that is always running, thinking, over analyzing, depicting every scenario.

I am always trying to think of new ways that could potentially make a difference in the world, though sometimes, I need to take time to look at myself, and how I can make a difference in my own life.

Two of my really good friends, one is actually a family member, are leaving away for college. They will be three and half hours away, and tonight they went shopping for their dorm things. I went along with them, and I realized that I don't know what I am going to do without them, or who I will be with out them. I guess that is all part of trying to find yourself.

Trying to find yourself is pretty difficult, and can be over bearing some days. I just want to be me, and I don't even know who that is. I don't think we ever find ourselves completely. Though we do come pretty close.

I know that I come off shy, and closed off, or in other people's eyes, rude, but I am not. That's my guard, and I don't know how to change it. I have let them down, but not for everyone.

Sharing my story to the world, to you, that a big chunk of my wall that is torn down, and that scares me everyday.

You know to be honest, I am a strange, weird, person, but I am also loving, caring, and strong willed. I am open about a lot of things once you get to know me, and that could shock you. I like to talk about everything. Everything  is interesting. Everything has a story, or something behind it. Just like life.
I guess I just want to try and find me, and try and be that person to the best of my ability.

I hope everyone is doing well in the world. I hope everyone is enjoying their summer, and vacation. I know I am!

I love you all so much, thank you for being amazing supporters!

Love always,

Saturday, June 1, 2013

Blissful Happenings!!

Hello world!! How are we doing? Hope all is well with everyone.

Recently I have had a ton of things happen in my life. I have had relaxation, and fun times. Got to spend time with friends, and learn things I never knew. I have received much need family time, and I have had some very weird and crazy dreams post graduation.

I have grown so much as person in the last couple of days. I think adulthood, and college are going to suit me well. Much better than high school. I have really been thinking about my future, and the person I am. I am very excited to start learning about all the things possible

I am excited for my life to begin. I know it will be scary at times, and things are going to be hard, but I have had worse I am certain of. I know that I will need guidance, and I will need advice to help me through my life. But that is life. We live and learn, with or with out guidance. I have had the absolute pleasure to have had that early on in my life. I am so thankful and blessed for everything in my life.

I have found my true friends, and I have started to find who I truly am on the inside. My confidence has gained so much, and I feel unbelievably happy and content with my life.

I think knowing that I am going to be my own person in this big world is the most fascinating thing ever. I know there will always be judgment, but this is a new way, and start on life.

I am thrilled to begin.

I am ecstatic to be quite honest.

This blog has given me so much hope, and has been a huge part in gaining my inner confidence. I have heard many stories from others, and I have received so much wisdom from them. Their words are kind, beautiful, and angelic. They give me confidence as well. That I can accomplish anything in the world that I set my mind to.

So I thank you all again for given me the confidence I need to continue to be the strong, confident girl.

My abuse has not only educated me on who I am, but it has educated me on what I am suppose to do in this world. It has educated others as well, and from what others tell me, inspire. Inspiration to tell their stories and to start helping them selves. That give me the greatest joy in the world.

I am loving the inboxes and I hope that I continue to receive more emails from others.

So today remember, HOPE, LOVE, and DETERMINATION can give you great happiness, and wonderful satisfaction! I hope that your story can inspire others, the way mine has hopefully inspired you.

Enjoy the summer, be safe, and have fun!

Love always,
TaylerMarie <3