Difficulty

Difficulty comes at a price. That price is your emotions, and the positive energy that is within your soul! It seems like it is just stripped away from you. And its our job is to find it, fix it, and move on. But its not as easy as 123 or ABC, it's more complex than that!

The first step that is hard, is finding it. That part is perplex. Being lost, is an unbearable feeling! We don't know who we are, what to do, or why our minds are so dark. Maybe we lost our memory of it, or its because of our memory that we are so lost, and dark. When we are in this stage all we can focus on is the pessimistic energy that surrounds us, so to find us, we have to search within us, and find our light, our good energy, and try to run toward it.

When we find that light, and that energy, we have to move to the next stage, which is the hardest. We have to fix us. So what does that mean? It means that we have to know that whatever the situation or problem is, its not our fault. And we have to believe it with every fiber in our bodies, in our minds, and in our souls. When we know that, the heavy weight is lifted a little bit. It takes time to reach down and pick ourselves up, but use the good around you to help. Use the strength, the determination, the devotion, and the tenacity to stand tall, and take control of your life!

Once we have completed these two steps we can complete the process of healing. We can move on. We may always have the memories, but the forgiveness and strength we contain, can help us preserve anything life throws our way!

With that I hope today was better than yesterday, and tomorrow is better than today!

XOXO!
Love always,
TaylerMarie <3

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I'm back!

I'M BACK!! Hello world! Hope all is well with everyone. I want to give an update about my life! The last time I blogged I talked about college, and how I reapplied and was hoping, and praying that I get accepted! Well, with hard work, and a great personal statement, I have been accepted to Humboldt State University!! I have also been busy and haven't had time to write because I have a job now. My very first ever job! It's at a fast food place here in my little town.

Life gives us complications, diversity in our way of life, and it gives us attitude. They way we want to perceive and accept those ways is up to us. If we always see the negative, how will we ever have the positive brought into our lives?? I know that it won't always be unicorns and rainbows, but hell, if we don't think we are going to see that at the end of the tunnel where does that leave us mentally? It leaves us depressed, and feeling "unwanted". Sometimes we need to look at ourselves from the outside in, to overcome our hardships.

I have a hard time every now & again. I'm not saying that anyone has it perfect. We have all been to hell in back I'm sure. It's not fun. For a lack of better words, sometimes the roses smell like shit. But we have to realize that just down the road a way there is a field of wildflowers and they smell blissfully well, and give you the strength to do whatever trials come your way!

Having a life with negativity is hard. Especially if you're a survivor! I'm just strarting on this whole "adult hood" and so I don't have the means to move out on my own. Though at times I wish I was so I could have quietness or peace. But we have this life and we live for right now not yesterday, and we prepare for tomorrow! Be grateful for everything wonderful!

I'm so glad to be back, and impacting the world! Hope everyone enjoyed, and I promise there will be more!

I hope today was better than yesterday, and tomorrow is better than today!!

Love always,
TaylerMarie!! <3

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Hope for the Change!

I see we have some new countries to welcome, so welcome!!!! Hope you enjoy the inspiring words!

I know I have been M.I.A for a while now! But a lot has happened! I have reapplied to college at Humboldt State University! I really am praying and hoping that I get accepted. To be honest my grades, SAT, ACT scores are not the best! Though I feel with the time I have had off I have learned my lesson, and I KNOW that I can do so much better in college, and I will be successful!

I have been doing research for weeks now! Looking at my options and what I can do to get accepted! I have really just been focused on my personal statement, and really making sure it is perfected and to the TEE! I have so much riding on this! My whole life. I didn't get the opportunity this fall semester because of some personal issues, and now I have the opportunity! I am really praying that I get accepted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have fought so hard for this. I deserve this. I have persevered, pushed, and over came so much pain, and emotional agony! I know that if this happens, everything in my life will be changed. I will be able to broaden my horizons with  an education.

I want to be able to keep doing what I am doing here online, but also be able to help others in the real world. Right now I am not able to do that. I try, by giving out words and advice as to what I think is correct based off my own experiences, and emotions, but sometimes I don't know how to respond to other's stories or issues. I need to be able to be ready, and confident in everything that I am going to say. I don't ever want to let others down, but sometimes I really do not know! That is why college is the best option.

Anyone with ambition, tenacity, determination, and love within their soul can truly accomplish anything, and that is what I am certain of! Like one of my favorite philosophers has said, "Be the change you want to see in the world"! That is what I am trying to live for. That is what has inspired the blog name, and my motivation to try and make a change.

I want to be able to educate the world on the abuse children, teens, and even adults are experiencing everyday, and not knowing or being able to navigate the situation. I always say to speak up, tell the truth because it will help you in the end, but that fear you carry within, is so much more dominant than the confidence you think it takes to say something. But know that in the end you will be free, and be able to chase all your dreams and aspirations.

I hope you all have been enjoying life, and the new school year!

With that, I hope today was better than yesterday, and tomorrow is better than today!

Xoxo
Love always,
TaylerMarie

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Love!

There is always going to be one thing that everyone is searching, wanting, needing in life, and that is love. Whether we want to admit it or not, feeling that exact feeling is the most incredible feeling.

I have not yet fell in love with someone, though I have liked someone with an improbable amount of liking. But I do this thing where I push them away. Or I say things that are unbelievable, and so random, that it makes me someone I know they don't want.

I have recently been working on that! Not pushing away, and working through all my insecurities. I have to let myself be vulnerable, and open, or I will never get the chance to feel, or experience love.

I know that every girl has that secret fairy-tale love that plays through their head. I know I do.
I dream of actually being me without judgement. I dream that I will be infatuated with everything my partner has to offer as a person. I dream that I will be able to be honest, and open with my life. I dream that I will never not want this person. I dream that we will fight for everything, no matter the situation. That no matter what our backgrounds are, no matter the baggage we will fight, because we know that there is potential and that there is love between us. I dream that I will have someone to encourage me on all job dreams and crazy projects, like being an advocate to teens that have been abused. I dream of having someone who can handle my moods because I am one of those teens that were abused.
I dream of a love that almost every girl wants, but this is the real world, not a movie. We have to learn that some people don't have the same courage to fight like you. That some people are more stubborn, or they don't have the same drive, and dedication. Life of love will always be complicated, even when you think you found the one.

I have seen basically everyone in my family fall in love, and fall right back out, or get their hearts broken! It wasn't easy for them. It was painful watching, and if you have ever seen that, you know you never want to feel that. I know that, that is also one of the main reason why I am so close guarded, and don't want  to fall in love because I don't want to feel pain. It's not a feeling people want, but sometimes to grow as people, and keep our humanity, and moral ways intact we have to experience those feelings.

Love is something I am always seeking, but so desperately hiding from!

I think the saying, "There is fine line between love and hate," is a true statement. I see couples who are genuinely happy, but they fight like they hate that person with every fiber in their bodies. But that is the "baggage" when you love someone so much.

Love will be a wonderful, exciting, dangerous, nerve racking experience for anyone no matter how many time they have fallen in love. Let what is suppose to be, be!

If you are girl, or even a guy, that has been through a similar situation of abuse, dropping your guard won't be easy. I know exactly what that feels like! So here is my advice for you, become their friend before their partner. Get to know them, take your time, slowly open up, so that they can completely understand you.

I am doing that, taking it slow with whoever the person I may have potential feelings for, and work from there. If we just breath, know that we are strong independent human beings, then you can accomplish anything, even LOVE!

With that, I hope today was better than yesterday, and tomorrow is better than today!
Xoxo <3

Love always,
TaylerMarie

Email me: bloggergirltayler@gmail.com

Moving past Afflictions

Life gives you curve balls, at the most random times. You think things are going great, then you hear the back of your mind laughing hysterically at you, saying HA! JUST KIDDING! And you have to deal with the next negative situation your life decides you need.

Everyone says we go through all of these trials, and tribulations so that we can become wiser and smarter. I have even blogged about learning from our mistakes. Though, sometimes I wish I could have a life without real problems.Though we wouldn't be the person we are with in ourselves if we did not have those afflictions or that oppression. We try our hardest everyday to surround ourselves with great, positive energy. But I know about the days when you just can't take any of it, and you are stuck. Stuck in that miserable and dark mood. Those are our hardest days. 

When I was going through my depression, and it was deep, and it was dark. I never had hope that I would get better. I did things that I am not proud of today, that's for sure. We take the simple way out of everything when we are in this state of mind. The simplicity of every situations seems like the best route.

But that isn't always the best. When I was at the end of my sophomore year, beginning year of my junior year, everything started to change. I started opening up to others, and things seemed better the more I talked about it. I was healing by expressing my thoughts, and my feelings about it. Then I decided to take a little visit to a wonderful young lady, and she helped me bring a wonderful club on campus to spread awareness of abuse to others at school!

And at one of our youth events, I heard a story that changed my life. I started a blog, and I am now a featured blogger for her website. Honestly, that is a dream, blessing, and more than anything I could have ever asked for. And behind everything that seems to go wrong in our day to day lives, we forget to look at the little things that make our lives have happiness and joy!

It's always hard to get past the negative things. I have been there, and it scares me when I do have my days. Because when I do have those days, I feel like I am back at square one, then I have to remember all my progress, and know that I am stronger than that, and I am stronger than my abuse, and I can make it through anything.

As can any one of you!

I just want everyone to have the life they deserve, and to have love and peace in their hearts, and in their souls.

With that, I hope today was better than yesterday, and tomorrow is better than today!
Xoxo <3

Love always,
TaylerMarie

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Adult World!

Recently I have been sick which was totally unexpected, and therefore I couldn't blog. I am sorry about that!

Though today I hope you enjoy it, just like the others.

I want to talk not about abuse today. I want to talk about the reality of growing up and facing the adult life. 

Most kids out of high school, like myself, want to enjoy their last summer! Which of course I did, but the time is almost over and now I have to face the adult world. 

I have to juggle college, a job, paying bills, and whatever else the world decides I need to handle. 

Right now I want to say honestly, REALITY SUCKS! Though I know that with hard work, and dedication I can accomplish anything I put my mind to! I know that I will make it, and in just a few short years, I will be doing something I love! 

I have may feel that I have to much to handle, but this is only the beginning. I watch my parents everyday, pay bills, go to work, put gas in the car, support our wants, and our needs, and buy things at random, but I also know that they do that because they work hard, and have learned how to manage and handle their money. I know that I will one day understand how to accomplish, and push through all my trails and tribulations in the real world by learning.

Everything we do in this life is important. How we handle our time, but also how we spend it. I know for those that are experiencing what I am for the first time, is that we can make it! We are strong willed people, we just have to set our minds on what we want and go for it. If ever there is a speed bump, take it slow, because soon your done, and you get over it. Continue your dreams, and achieve as much as you can!

Hope that everyone is doing well, and today was better than yesterday, and tomorrow is better than today!

Xoxo

Love always,

TaylerMarie

Life...

We all have scary moments in our lives that leave us speechless. We are at a loss for words. Who do we tell? HOW do we tell?

Majority of the time, saying what ever the problem is, is what conflicts us the most, and it is the hardest thing to do. Though, lying never got anyone anywhere. "The truth will set you free!". The truth will always be the right path. It will bring you good karma.

I have always known that lying was bad. But an occasional white lie I thought would never hurt anyone. But then I looked at myself and my perception on what I want from another human being, and that is not a lie. I do not want someone to tell me a lie, even if it's a white little lie. I want the truth, always. I know that everyone else in this world wants the truth! Sometimes it may be hard to hear, but it will definitely benefit us in the end.

I kept a lie for a really, really long time. A lie that was endangering my life. If I didn't say some quickly, and fast enough, I could have risked it for others in my family of being a victim! That I would not be able to handle.

I will tell you the truth, as I always have. I lied to the cops the first time they came to my house. I told them everything was great and my life was perfect, and I had everything I wanted. I said anything that would get them off my case, and anything they would believe.

I suffered the consequence of bad karma when I lied.

Months went by. The cops came and went. Everything was "settled", at least I thought it was. Then "IT" happened again!

I knew that lying was a bad idea, and I suffered the consequence, but I know also that it wasn't my fault. I knew that it was God giving me a second chance to set things right so He could help me find the right path.

If something serious is happening in your life, don't be afraid to confide in someone, never know when their help will save your life, or make your day better!

Xoxo

Love always,
TaylerMarie


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